Helpless

Another night without hardly any sleep.  It's like a circle of life or a roller coaster that we keep getting on and forgetting what happens in the end.  J's stomach is not happy.  I don't know why and this doesn't sit well for a Mom not knowing how to help.  He has a doc's appointment on the 8th with his regular physician.  Maybe it's that I'm scared he might have to go back in, or the surgery didn't work.  I looked on line to see other's people comments about this surgery and they all are doing fine, exactly what is to be expected.  I know J is unique, but seriously, I don't think he should be complaining that he doesn't feel good or his stomach hurts.  He is curled up most of the time,  and then just add those behaviors we had a little break from.  His smile is gone and I guess that is just what kills me the most.  I just wished someone knew something or had the guts to find out something instead of relying on J's parents for answers.  WE DON'T HAVE THEM.